Eamon’s “F*ck It”. It doesn’t exactly fit but a friend recently reminded me of this song and I thought I’d share in the laughter. WARNING: This song contains language not suitable for children.
It’s official. My wife is cheating on me and he’s more than just a fling. How dare she find someone of the opposite sex to care about and spend her time with! Didn’t she know that we were supposed to be perpetually single together? And how dare the person actually be cool and good to/for her! Or nice to me and my dog! Now what am I going to do? I enjoyed avoiding relationships with my little comrade.
Okay, so it may not be that extreme but sometimes it could feel that way if I let it. There is something about getting comfortable with your current situation. It doesn’t mean you love every part of your life but that you at least know how to deal with it all. What do you do when something suddenly changes without your consent?
As with most things, this is all about me. (Haha) I can’t write about what she feels or thinks although I know that she’s adjusting to this as well. But her adjustment is at least more fun than mine. I am losing my wife, my comrade, my little buddy. And I can’t be happier for her or sadder for me. 😦
You see it’s not completely that I’m jealous of him taking her away from me (although that’s a big part of it). I’m also jealous of her. Months ago, we discussed our perpetual singledom. I thought I was done with it. I might actually be ready to end the streak. She on the other hand had absolutely no intention of abandoning her current state. Fast forward a couple of months and she’s with a really good guy and I’m forced to watch them hold hands at dinner and cuddle on our couch. Because I’m bitter and have the selective maturity of a 12-year-old, it all makes me a little uncomfortable. I’m not ready for her to move on because that forces me to accept she won’t always be around when I want her to be and to consider why I haven’t, especially since I’m the one that thought they wanted to. I know you can’t force things and everything good comes in time but still…
After relaying my current childish frustration, a non-single friend of mine told me that of course these things happen and that I shouldn’t feel bad about feeling whatever I’m feeling. Since she’s in a long-distance relationship, she relies on her single friends during the week. She’d prefer for them to stay single if only for her sake. Now, while that may sound a little selfish, I can only appreciate it that much more because she’s being honest. A close friend entering a new romantic relationship can be a difficult thing to deal with/accept/be happy about regardless of your relationship status. Your life changes and you don’t get to enjoy any of the benefits of this change. All I can do is be happy for her. But no one said how quickly or gracefully I had to make this adjustment.
There’s no resolution for this post . I’m just sharing my situation, frustration and childish reactions. I’m happy my wife is cheating on me but I’ll still be bitter for a little while longer.
Depressed with the dogs because she’s not home,
Jo’van
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The Truth: According to Jo'van 
this his high comedy. i don’t know if you intended it to be, but it sure made me crack up. at first i was confused, then i remembered the “platonic wife.” i still think it’s funny that you two are still so close (literally meant: proximity) after all these years.
anyhows, i can’t imagine my being jealous at a good friend of mine’s relationship. in fact, i generally encourage all my closest friends to link up. hell, that gives me more time to myself… but that’s a whole other story…
It’s a little different for me. By my roommate coupling off, I’m alone at home more. I’m just used to her being around. And now I have to become used to her only being around if he is too.
July is single ladies celebration month – I believe we titled it as such (or maybe I just did)…I know you are tied up (ha!) this weekend, but when you come back, be ready…
The grass is always greener on the other side. Speaking from the relationship perspective…I just went on a romantic vacation I expected it to make me fall madly in love, the opposite happened. I have been thinking of my single days, the fun I had, the strong sense of independence and identity that I love to feel. Now everything is a blur, I spend so much time with this person I am feeling like I am losing myself in the relationship, what happened to the individual me, where I was number one and I didn’t have to rearrange my schedule or change my circle of friends (since they are mostly of the opposite sex) ? When are you really ready to be selfless and settle down with someone? Don’t get me wrong, I care a lot for this person, but for some reason I am getting the desire to run….then I think about it, and I don’t want to leave the person I am with, despite all the doubt…I am happy with him and we have fun…but…it’s a vicious cycle. I wonder if this will always be the case in my relationships, or is it just that I haven’t found the right person. Wow, this is therapy. Love you!