Quarterlife Crisis: Giving Up the (615)

Oh, young Luda.  Gotta love it.  This song doesn’t really apply but it came to mind so here you go!

A few weeks ago, I made one of the hardest decisions of this year.  (I’d say of my life but that would just be over-dramatic.)  Sure, getting a tattoo, cutting off my hair, accepting a new job, finally having “that” conversation with my roommate were all important and took guts.  BUT giving up the phone number I’ve had for nearly 8 years was a big deal.  Not only am I too lazy to remember another number (since 2001, it’d just rolled off the tongue) but getting this new number meant something more important: giving up the 615 area code.

I am originally from Nashville, TN.  While there are things about the city and region that I can’t stand (race relations, ignorance, allergens, men with grills, etc), Nashville is home.  Mother, grandmothers, childhood home, high school friends, familiar restaurants, great hairdresser, you know, all of the important things. 🙂  As a high school senior, there was nothing I wanted more than to get out of Nashville and Tennessee.  College (luckily) was never a question. I just knew that I was not staying  anywhere with a TN in the address.  So I told myself I’d go to whatever school gave me the best offer out-of-state.  I was blessed to be an above average student with high PSAT scores, from a middle-class family, a female and a minority.  For schools looking to offer “merit-based” scholarships, the combination doesn’t get much better.  I’m not foolish enough to deny that.  However, that could be an entirely different “Shades of Understanding” post.  In fact, the school I actually attended was the school that gave me the second best offer but that explanation deserves another “Shades of Understanding” post of its own.  In due time.  In due time.

Anyway, I attended Iowa State University.  For all accounts, it was a good school.  Like anywhere new, there were things that were less than ideal and just plain sad, but I met some wonderful people, received a good education and was given several wonderful, life-altering opportunities.  But obviously, Ames, IA was not home.  So I never changed my cell phone number.  I knew I wouldn’t be in Iowa for more than four years.  There was something rebellious about keeping my hometown phone number.  I WOULD NOT become a resident of Iowa.  Sure, it just made sense at that time to keep it.  TN was still a part of my permanent address and drivers license.  Holding onto that 615 wouldn’t really mean anything until I had a new permanent address.

3 1/2 years ago, I accepted a job offer in Austin, TX and moved.  Not everything has been perfect but it’s been good.  I don’t regret that move and have come to appreciate the city.  I still don’t know if Austin’s going to be home but until a new target city emerges, I’m perfectly content here.  Two months into my stay, I got a speeding ticket and had to get a TX license to qualify for defensive driving.  That was pretty painful but legally required.  Not having a real choice makes it easier to choose.  Since then, I’ve done pretty much all things Austin and Texas.  I’m still waiting to purchase my first pair of cowboy boots but give me time.  The one thing I hadn’t done was change my phone number.  Somehow 512 just didn’t sound as good as 615 to me.    8 years is a long time to have a relationship with anything.  In this digital age, your cell phone number and email address are really a part of your identity.  I preferred to remain identified with Tennessee.

So what made me finally give it up?  Money.  I wish it was something more poetic but it’s just not.  My new gig provides stipends for cell phones and smartphones if you agree to use them for business.  Seeing as I’d already put my work email on my Blackberry, I figured I should accept the stipend.  The amount is actually like 150% of my regular monthly bill.  Ok, I’ll take that.  I’ll make a little profit for doing what I was already planning to do.  The only issue was that since we’re an Austin-centric business, it only makes sense for employees receiving the stipend to have Austin numbers.  So save a little money or hold onto an area code that means nothing to anyone but you?  Ok. Don’t be stupid.

Sure, I’d had that number for almost a decade.  Yes, my grandmothers know the number.  Sure, you’d run the risk of losing touch with old friends.  (But then again if you were really that close, you’d find a way to get in touch.  I’ve had the same email address since 2001 also…)  But I’m also 25, have lived in Austin for more than 3 years and it’s makes financial sense to change.  Done.

I sent a mass text to the people in my phone that ended with something like “Please update my number or use this as an excuse to lose touch.”  I got some negative responses to that but that just means they were paying attention.  The people that didn’t respond were handed their way out. 🙂

Still struggling to remember my new number,

Jo’van

Quarterlife Crisis: Halloween Ho

So this Halloween I did it.  I did what every judgemental woman and man loves to see on Halloween so they can feel justified in their judgement.  I fulfilled the stereotype of women who just want an excuse to be naked in public.  I looked like a Halloween Ho.  Please note I said looked like a Halloween Ho.  Actions would require an entirely different post.  I just dressed the part.

While I generally judge, I can’t really say anything against people deciding to be half-naked in public.  Do what you do.  It just provides me with more things to point and laugh at.  So as one of these perpetually judgemental people, why would I volunteer to be cold and naked in public at the end of October?

There’s not a good answer to that question.  Or at least there’s not one that sounds good.  To be perfectly honest, the situation simply presented itself.  Between feeling more confident in my body, caring (a little) less about what strangers think of me, enjoying the company of my friends, having flatter abs than ever and someone providing me with the outfit AND shoes, saying no just would’ve been stubborn.  Not wrong, just stubborn.  I never did the teenage/college Halloween Ho thing.  I’ve always been covered and warm.  For whatever reason,  the outfits never really caught my attention.  I mean of course I noticed that attention they did grab but somehow I was above all of that.  This year, I wasn’t above, below, beside, behind, or anything else.  I was indifferent and thought “what the hell?”

Any regrets? No, not really.  I could use the justification that I was more covered than I would be at a beach.  But that scenario is flawed because I wouldn’t be the only person in a bathing suit.  Dressing like a pirate wench with her chest elevated, abs exposed and boots covering 4 times as much skin as her skirt, I didn’t expect to see too many people looking like me.  And to make things even worse, we spent our evening on the “classy” side 6th street, the infamous bar area of Austin.  (Yes, there are other interesting/entertaining districts, but 6th street is well known.)  Instead of hanging out with the 19 year olds with fake IDs and more skin showing than clothes, I instead hung out with the “I’m too old east 6th but still want to get drunk at a bar downtown on Halloween” crowd.  The median age was probably a year or two older than me and the metabolisms had already begun to slow down.  We were past the “all I consume is beer and pizza and I’m still a size 4” times in our lives.  The gym or bigger clothes are our only options.

And to be perfectly honest, I was uncomfortable at first.  The outfit was borrowed but I was still the most naked of my group.  (In fact, the lady I borrowed the outfit from was fully covered this year.  That’s just not fair.)  I wasn’t ready to be judged the way I judge.  But some vampire vodka, supportive friends, and realization that I would probably never see any of the people who might judge me again helped me get over it.  Bare the abs, fishnet the legs, zip up the boots, gloss the lips and straighten the wig, I’m ready to go.

Blushing after a car full of men yelled “Captain Jack Sparrow”.  Thanks, guys.  Thanks.

Jo’van

 

Fishnet Bar Battlewounds

Bar Battlewounds

I’ve already picked my outfit for next year.  As long as I get my legs in shape, I’ll be in search of a crazy blond wig, a dress with more fringe than length and Hanes stockings.  Tina Turner here I come!

No Patience for You: “My Bad” is NOT “I’m Sorry”

“Tired of Waiting for You” by The Kinks

This evening I was supposed to have band rehearsal.  Yes, I’m in a band…  Sunday evening, our keyboard player asked me to get together sometime this week to work on a song I’d written.  We settled on Thursday and I put it in my phone, making it official.  🙂

I knew today was going to be a LONG day.  And it was.  But the only things to do after a long day are relax or have fun.  I was excited to work on this song and had no problem with all of the shitty things associated with it.

  • You see we hold our rehearsals and studio sessions at our lead singers house.  He just so happens to live 20 miles from my home, 25 miles from my office.
  • With my new job, I  can only rehearse after work, which means after 5:30 or so.  Going 25 miles in rush hour traffic can easily take you over an hour.
  • Going straight to rehearsal after work means no dinner.  So I stopped at Whattaburger near his house.  They were out of chicken strips and asked me to pull around and they’d bring it out to me.  20 minutes passed and I went inside.  They’d forgotten about me and were out of chicken strips again.  They comped my meal, apologized profusely and 10 minutes later I had my meal in hand, although it was technically 30 minutes later.
  • If you arrive after 7:30 pm on a weeknight to my apartment complex, all of the close parking is taken (including by my roommate’s boyfriend).  You’re forced to park 8 buildings from your own.

All of these things suck but are not a concern when you’re doing what you’re supposed to.  Sacrifices I make to rehearse or record with my band.  HOWEVER, these things are not okay when other people screw up.

As I left the Whattaburger down the street from the house, the lead singer returned an earlier call.  He wasn’t home b/c the keyboard player hadn’t answered any calls that day.  Okay, call the keyboard player.  He started by making excuses, backtracking.  It was obvious he had no idea why I thought we were getting together.  It was someone else’s fault.  I mean no one else was available.  We’re getting together tomorrow. Blah blah blah.  When I mentioned the name of the specific song we were supposed to work on, I could practically hear the light bulb go on it his head.  “Oh, Tiff.  That’s all on me.  I completely forgot.”

Being completely annoyed, I refused to make him feel better about forgetting.  It was his idea.  He set it up.  And then tried to blame other people?  No.  Okay, okay. Shit happens.  Things get lost.  And all of the crappy additions making this situation worse are not his fault.  BUT admitting fault is not the same as apologizing.   I wanted to hear him say I’m sorry.  I’d just sat in an hour of traffic, waited 30 minutes for 3 minute food, lost any good parking at home and all I get is  “That’s all on me”?  No shit, Sherlock.  It couldn’t be on anyone else.  I just need to hear you apologize.  Be sorry I just wasted 2 hours of my life b/c you were too lazy to write an appointment you set down.

Cooling off but still annoyed,

Jo’van

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